Date: 2009-09-22 01:32 Subject: btw Security: Public Mood: energetic

me:
i can't believe they're still in there arguing!

scott:
My family would be throwing punches by now....

me:
i just went in there to break it up

scott:
sounds like fun

me:
yeah, it's super
i've recently started using the word super to describe things that suck

scott:
I tend to use special on such occasions

me:
unfortunately i still use super in the way it was intended also
so it's become more difficult to understand me
which is super

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Date: 2009-09-06 16:15 Subject: kendall makes me feel better about myself Security: Public Mood: energetic Music: girl talk

[01:50] Kendall: i fucking hate people
[01:50] The Dread Pirate Cato: but why?
[01:50] The Dread Pirate Cato: i thought you luuuuuuuuuuvd people
[01:52] Kendall: you are a find, for lack of a better word. you are the ONLY person i know like you.... even remotely like you! You like weird shit, which isnt rare, but at the same time you dont exibit a sense of intellectual entitlement because of it. which is a fucking retarded thing to do - i like indy entertainment..... seek my opinion!
[01:52] Kendall: i hate that take on it
[01:52] Kendall: anyways
[01:53] Kendall: you seem unaffected by your taste for the strange
[01:53] Kendall: that's pretty much my deffinition of cool
[01:53] The Dread Pirate Cato: i very much appreciate this opinion of yours!


[03:00] Kendall: but if there was someone sane to talk to, that'd be awesome, because there are waiting periods during the draft
[03:01] The Dread Pirate Cato: "someone sane" doesn't sound like an accurate description of me
[03:01] The Dread Pirate Cato: especially when i look at my myspace page
[03:02] Kendall: you are more grounded in reality that anyone i know, myself included
[03:02] Kendall: i dont know how, but you see things so fucking clearly
[03:02] The Dread Pirate Cato: ha ha, tell my mom that

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Date: 2009-07-25 02:10 Subject: i personally have nothing to say Security: Public Mood: bouncy Music: babes in toyland

[01:06] Kendall: i'm not that drunk anymore
[01:06] Kendall: i think that's why i aint much good at talking
[01:06] Kendall: which is said
[01:06] Kendall: *sad

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Date: 2009-06-14 21:05 Subject: you know what you are, you're dead meat motherfucker Security: Public Mood: depressed Music: babes in toyland

god damn i'm so fucking pissed off today.

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Date: 2009-05-31 01:45 Subject: WHAT DON'T YOU FUCKING UNDERSTAND? Security: Public Mood: high

fuck, what the fuck is it with you?

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gUjcSKaBfL8

seriously man you and me, we're fucking done, professionally.

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Date: 2009-05-21 00:13 Subject: these pigs wanna blow my house down Security: Public Mood: crazy Music: cypress hill

i went camping for like 8 days with louis, it was awesome. aaron and katie found us out there one day and made us hike with them a bunch which was cool, then the next night they came to our camp site again this time with marty and brian, which was also cool. some cops came and talked to us in the middle of the night and checked out all our IDs. then they said we need a permit to camp there, told us not to leave any garbage lying around, and left. (later we checked the sand lakes quiet area website, which says "no permit required.") benji camped with us the first and last nights, and we also had maggie on the last night. all in all i was a very happy camper. louis and i even made a sauna in a tent.

now back to looking for jobs. :(

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Date: 2009-05-08 15:00 Subject: better or worse Security: Public Mood: depressed Music: Soulfly, JUMPDAFUCKUP

if i fill out an assload of job applications and study a bunch for the GED my mom will let me keep my shit in her house. i just want to fucking escape.

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Date: 2009-05-03 01:47 Subject: soon i will be homeless. Security: Public Mood: indescribable

my mom is very angry at me for shaving my head and going camping (when i do go camping next week) and she says if i go camping i'm not allowed to come back. i've already psyched myself up about camping and getting to see louis again so there's no way i'm going back on that. i NEED that camping. i don't think i could survive the torment of staying here, not camping or seeing louis, and trying to find a job so i can stay at my mom's house and get griped at all the time. so i guess when i come back from camping i will have to...continue camping. and try to find a job while doing so. i'll see what i can do. i'm kinda depressed about it but i'll do it.

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Date: 2009-04-23 18:55 Subject: witness this, witness that, until you lose your mind Security: Public Mood: bouncy Music: creature feature

lately i've been hanging out at kahuna's house a lot, which is a much more positive environment than my mom's house whenever she exists inside it. it shouldn't be such a mind fuck to spend so much time with someone that's always respectful. my mind is actually trying to rebel against it and hate myself more. it's ridiculous.

soon, in about a week if weather permits, i plan on going camping for a week or so at sand lakes. louis is planning on taking a bus up here so we can camp together and hang out for a while. i think it's been at least five months since i've seen him. hopefully we'll get along well. i'm going to take maggie with me, she'll love it.

right now i need to...be constructive in some way. maybe sew. i have so many unfinished projects.

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Date: 2009-04-12 02:53 Subject: so megan and i don't always see eye to eye. Security: Public Mood: confused Music: ranma 1/2

[01:58] Palina27: you should build an anything goes martial arts dojo in your back yard.
[01:58] seiran79: Haven't we had this discussion?
[01:58] Palina27: i think sol
[01:58] Palina27: so.
[02:00] Palina27: but i still think it's a good idea.
[02:00] seiran79: It is a flawed plan.
[02:00] Palina27: but why?
[02:00] seiran79: Uh, we don't live in the right area for it, for one thing.
[02:01] Palina27: how can there be a right area for anything goes martial arts?!
[02:01] seiran79: In Japan where the magic pandas live!
[02:01] Palina27: we don't have to go to japan in order to be martial artists!
[02:02] seiran79: Where will we get our magic panda?
[02:02] Palina27: we don't need a magic panda.
[02:02] seiran79: Dude watch some more Ranma.
[02:02] seiran79: So do.
[02:02] Palina27: we do not!
[02:03] seiran79: Do too!
[02:03] Palina27: do not!
[02:03] seiran79: Do too!
[02:04] Palina27: a magic panda is not required!!
[02:04] seiran79: Is too!
[02:04] Palina27: you're crazy!
[02:08] seiran79: You're stupid!
[02:08] Palina27: you!
[02:08] seiran79: NO U
[02:09] Palina27: >.<
[02:09] seiran79: *cries*
[02:16] seiran79: [02:03] Seiran79: Jordan! Settle an argument?
[02:14] inkyjord: kay
[02:15] inkyjord: what's the argument?
[02:15] Seiran79: Okay! As a Japanese dude! And a dude who does all that fighting working out stuff! And a geek! You are the ultimate settler!
[02:15] inkyjord: okay
[02:15] Seiran79: Does opening a martial arts dojo require A MAGIC PANDA?
[02:15] inkyjord: Magic panda? No. A regular panda will suffice.
[02:16] Seiran79: My god.
[02:16] Seiran79: You have reached the ultimate compromise.
[02:16] Seiran79: THANK YOU JAPANMAN.
[02:17] Palina27: WHY WOULD A DOJO NEED A PANDA?
[02:18] seiran79: DUDE ARE WE WATCHING THE SAME FUCKING RANMA
[02:18] Palina27: uhhhh i doubt it
[02:18] Palina27: actually i'm watching ranma music videos on youtube right now
[02:19] seiran79: And what does that dojo have?
[02:19] Palina27: just because THAT dojo has a magic panda
[02:20] Palina27: now you're insisting EVERY OTHER DOJO follow suit?
[02:20] seiran79: I am learning from the best!
[02:21] Palina27: i've never heard of a real panda that knows martial arts.
[02:21] Palina27: although you could probably learn from an ape of some sort.
[02:21] seiran79: I suppose google can tell us of this.
[02:22] seiran79: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EJYQquOavnw !!!!!!
[02:22] Palina27: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_v8n_FNpdLc
[02:23] seiran79: >.<
[02:23] seiran79: It lacks the dignity and grace of the panda.
[02:24] Palina27: but it's actually doing what he says!
[02:25] seiran79: PANDAS = PANDORABLE
[02:26] Palina27: nevertheless, martial arts need not be learned from other species.
[02:26] seiran79: Hmph.
[02:26] seiran79: This is why we can't have a dojo. Look at how it has torn us apart.
[02:27] Palina27: NO! A DOJO MUST BE HAD!
[02:30] seiran79: NO! DOJO NOJO!
[02:31] Palina27: POOPY BUTTHOLE FARTING!
[02:31] seiran79: STUPID STUPID JERKFACE
[02:32] Palina27: I KNOW YOU ARE BUT WHAT AM I
[02:32] seiran79: I'M RUBBER YOUR GLUE WHATEVER YOU SAY YOU'RE STILL MADE OUT OF DEAD HORSES
[02:33] Palina27: MY GLUE DISAGREES
[02:33] seiran79: YOUR MOM DISAGREES
[02:33] Palina27: YES SHE DOES
[02:33] Palina27: WHAT ARE YOU GONNA DO ABOUT IT
[02:33] Palina27: BITCH
[02:33] seiran79: SHE FREQUENTLY DOES IT IS A FLAW IN EHR CHARACTER
[02:33] seiran79: WHAT WERE WE FIGHTING ABOUT
[02:34] Palina27: I'M NOT REALLY SURE
[02:34] seiran79: OKAY BUT WE'RE STILL YELLING
[02:34] Palina27: YEAH I NOTICED THAT
[02:34] seiran79: GOD DAMN IT
[02:34] Palina27: MOTHERFUCKER
[02:34] seiran79: I LOVE YOU YOU STUPID FUCKING FUCK
[02:35] Palina27: I FUCKING LOVE YOU TOO YOU FUCKING FUCKER
[02:35] Palina27: NOW KISS ME YOU FOOL

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Date: 2009-03-18 17:31 Subject: i'm sorry! Security: Public Mood: awake Music: good music Tags: dreams

[17:06] Palina27: i just woke up from a seriously fucked up dream about you and me being kidnapped in the woods
[17:06] seiran79: I dreamed that I went to a diner and my friend Tiffany was the waitress but she had a French accent and I ate hash browns.
[17:06] Palina27: that sound less fucked up
[17:06] Palina27: but funny
[17:07] seiran79: It was weird.
[17:08] Palina27: in mine you and i were camping and we ran into some crazy people that lived in a huge cabin out in the woods, with multiple basement levels. they used magic to lure us into their house and make us unstoppably horny so we would have sex with them.
[17:08] seiran79: ...what kind of crazy people?
[17:09] Palina27: just crazy, kind of like the people in house of 1000 corpses
[17:10] Palina27: eventually after making us both have sex with all of them, they started talking about wanting to go kidnap some more people so they could kill them while forcing us to fuck them, then grind them up and eat them for dinner
[17:11] Palina27: when they left to go get some dinner people we escaped.
[17:15] seiran79: Cato, I have a signed note from my Doctor that I cannot participate in any more of your dreams.
[17:15] Palina27: i'm sorry!
[17:15] Palina27: i have no control over what happens in them.

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Date: 2009-02-27 02:23 Subject: i finished my wood. Security: Public Mood: high Music: kidney thieves

i forgot to mention earlier that i finally put some new crayon drawings up on my deviantart. hopefully i'll be putting up more stuff soon as i continue to do things. a couple hours ago i started crocheting a hat, i don't know if it'll turn out good but i figure it shouldn't take too long to find out.


[02:17] Palina27: i finished my wood.
[02:18] LoTuSkilla6669: what did you do?
[02:18] Palina27: i put wood finish on the wood.
[02:18] Palina27: so i guess it's finished now.
[02:19] Palina27: except that i have to apply an extra clear coat over the finish, so it's not really *finished* yet.
[02:20] LoTuSkilla6669: your mom said she had to air the house out.
[02:20] Palina27: yeah, she was kind of bitchy about it.
[02:21] Palina27: i sort of breathed in a bunch of fumes when i took a nap.
[02:21] Palina27: i have since moved the "finished" yet unfinished furniture to the garage.

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Date: 2009-02-26 15:57 Subject: YOU CAN SUCK MY DICK AND FUCKING LIKE IT!!! Security: Public Mood: high Music: Korn

so i had the beat/tune/thingy of a Korn song stuck in my head but i've never known the actual lyrics of this part of the song. the words i chose to say outloud were

"what the fuck did you do with my lighter really anyway?"

however i just found the song, which is called "Faget" and apparently the actual lyrics are

"He had my gun but he had a body mighty, anyway"


anyway, i think i need to color rainbows now. i believe that is very important. because i'm super happy and i might draw something cool. it can happen.

p.s. You know what, Fuck you!
I'm fed up with you!
I'm not as good as you?!
Fuck no! I'm better than you!

You know what, Fuck you!
I'm fed up with you!
I'm not as good as you?!
Fuck no! I'm better than you!

You know what, Fuck you!
I'm fed up with you!
I'm not as good as you?!
Fuck no! I'm better than you!

You know what, Fuck you!
I'm fed up with you!
I'm not as good as you?!
Fuck no! I'm better than you!

You know what, Fuck you!
I'm fed up with you!
I'm not as good as you?!
Fuck no! I'm better than you!

You know what, Fuck you!
I'm fed up with you!
I'm not as good as you?!
Fuck no! I'm better than you!

You know what, Fuck you!
I'm fed up with you!
I'm not as good as you?!
Fuck no! I'm better than you!

You know what, Fuck you!
I'm fed up with you!
I'm not as good as you?!
Fuck no! I'm better than you!

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Date: 2009-02-21 11:36 Subject: i am a vampire, i like to wear sheep's clothing Security: Public Mood: confused Music: garbage

i am very confused about life and how i feel about it. and how it feels about me. i don't know what i'm supposed to do. all i can figure is that i should probably SHUT THE FUCK UP CATO.

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Date: 2009-02-07 00:22 Subject: holy shit. Security: Public Mood: high Music: nine inch nails - discipline

i never noticed until just now how fucking HOT this song is.

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Date: 2009-01-19 04:31 Subject: space monkey, so out of line Security: Public Mood: energetic Music: patti smith

I WILL WRITE IN MY FUCKING JOURNAL BEFORE I DO ANOTHER FUCKING THING.

last night i wrote a list of some things i want to get done so maybe i'll stop forgetting and DO some of it. today i felt productive and got some stuff done, NONE OF WHICH was on the list i made last night. go figure. at least i'm getting some stuff done. go go gadget dexedrine. woo!

i've been trying to switch my days and nights around after much insistence from my mother, but my efforts appear to only be making my schedule even more fucked up. today i went to bed at 4:30pm and woke up at 8:30pm. although i guess technically that was yesterday. it's monday now. huh. i should make some phone calls to doctors and such during the day before i go to bed. that's on the list.

now i'm going to make a little compartmenty organizy thingy out of cardboard and paper and paint. that's not on the list. i'm going to do it anyway. after the amount of depression and apathy i've experienced lately, any amount of inspiration feels amazing and must be indulged. i've already conducted some experiments today making paper mache sort of things. on one thing i used paint as a paste and did a sort of paper mache thing to the edge of my desk to strengthen this peice of cardboard i taped on there, you know what, it's hard to explain. maybe i'll take a picture of it later. the other thing i did was a paper mache sort of dealy using spackle as paste to make a solid flat surface on the top of the orange crate i use as a bedside table.

i should just copy and paste some of the email i just sent to my uncle, because this is really what inspired me to start experimenting with sculpty sorts of things.

BEHOLD:

http://www.greenhomebuilding.com/natural_building.htm is the natural building site, and http://www.greenhomebuilding.com/pumicecrete.htm is the lightweight concrete part with the houses i told you about that look like they came out of a dr. suess book. papercrete also is easily sculptable and a lot of the houses made out of papercrete look like they came out of a star wars movie.

like http://oikos.com/library/papercrete/finishedhouse-300.jpg
http://unusuallife.com/wp-content/uploads2006/PapercreteHouse.jpg
http://www.agua-luna.com/images/papercrete%20home.jpg
http://www.hybridadobe.com/design_gallery/images/papercrete-stairway.jpg
this http://www.daycreek.com/DC/images/062500a.jpg is papercrete with logs in it
this http://www.agilitynut.com/07/10/wilbh10.jpg is papercrete with bottles in it

i want to build a house out of dirt and garbage. like skara brae. i just learned about skara brae from the history channel. it's this neolithic village in wales that looks like it was dug into the ground, but really they built walls out of stone slabs and piled all their non-stinky garbage outside the walls to make a mound that worked very well as insulation. the huts were connected by roofed passageways and "experts" theorize the huts probably had domed roofs, but now they look like this http://www.nsiuk.org/bwss/assets/images/hf17_skara_brae_airview_49010206.jpg

http://community.iexplore.com/photos/journal_photos/Skara%20Brae%202(2)_prefRes.jpg
http://www.odinorkney.com/pages/maeshowe/images/n047.jpg
http://farm3.static.flickr.com/2097/2305408505_781efda81d.jpg?v=0
http://colin.guthr.ie/g2/main.php?g2_view=core.DownloadItem&g2_itemId=104&g2_serialNumber=2

i would probably use earthbags to make walls instead of stone though. also it would be fun to say "i built my house out of dirtbags and garbage." then i could cement over the walls with like, cement. or something. like this:

http://loveforlife.com.au/files/EarthBag%20Home%206kpapercretingmc.jpg
http://www.offbeathomes.com/wp-content/uploads/2007/09/hh11-medium-web-view.jpg
http://www.offbeathomes.com/wp-content/uploads/2007/09/hh01-medium-web-view.jpg
http://radio.weblogs.com/0119080/images/Gallery/superadobe3.jpg
http://www.calearth.org/EcoDome_files/DastEcDmThruRD.jpg
http://www.domy.naturalne.info/upload/earthbags.jpg

also there's this http://www.simondale.net/house/index.htm hobbit house someone built in wales which is severely awesome looking. a living roof like that would be super awesome, the only downside would be that you'd have to water your house every day.

i'm also very incredibly interested in tree shaping http://www.pooktre.com/ which is also called arborsculpture. some people have formed gazebos and stuff out of trees. i totally want to do that. but i don't have my own land. you should start shaping trees on your property.

sorry if i sent you too many picture links. looking at pictures of buildings is one of my favorite things to do lately.

louis just sent me this http://www.hothomesofutah.com/blog/54/strange-homes-buildings/

OKAY, I'M A LITTLE OBSESSED.

/email to unca jim

so what i really want to do is build a BUILDING, but since i can't do that and i can't stop thinking about it i'm going to do experiments and build small things. like furniture. when spring comes i'm probably going to beg my mom to let me build something on her property. maybe a greenhouse. that seems like something she might go for. MEGAN AND ERIN, YOU HAVE AN EXISTING FOUNDATION IN YOUR BACK YARD. JUST THOUGHT I'D MENTION IT SUBTLY.

"don't you know that anyone can come
and they come and they call and they crawl on the floor.
don't you see when you're looking at me
that i'll never end, transcend transcend
ain't it straaaaange"
(patti smith)

I AM GOING TO STOP FUCKING WRITING IN MY FUCKING JOURNAL NOW! FUCK!

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Date: 2009-01-10 05:49 Subject: first sentences of 2008, meme Security: Public Mood: awake Music: a very bizarre playlist Tags: meme

january: this is a test of the emergency fuck around on the internet system.

february: went to the cataract dr. today, i still need to go back for another appointment to see if my eyes will possibly get along and work together to see, therefore giving me DEPTH perception.

march: if i had any ambition right now i would draw pictures of people killing each other.

april: so today kate (manager of st) called to tell me that she had to fire marty because the store got fined because marty went on a smoke break and left the kiosk unattended.

may: i thought: "we need a couple of catnip necklaces."
but really: "i made a couple of cat napkins."

june: this was me a minute ago, talking to some food in the microwave:

july: louis borrowed some stand up comedy dvds from someone at work.

august: louis and i were randomly invited to go camping with aaron and katie and it was totally awesome.

september: weekend = drunken wasted chaos.

october: 1. Grab the nearest book.
or
And if cancer wasn't lurking there, it might be lurking somewhere else.

november: i got a job as a nanny/housemaid with a guy i'm sure represented louis as like a groundskeeper/personal protection dude.

(and since apparently i didn't update at all in december, this is from my actual journal i keep in paper)
december: i am irritated about life.



come to think of it, i think i'll do that again with my paper journal.



january: woke up, got ready for work.

february: i cleaned up my room a bit but i still have not found my W2 OR scheduled a therapist appt and SHIT i need to keep better track of my shit.

march: strange things have been happening.

april: 1. brush my teeth

may: GOD DAMN MY FUCKING EYE ITCHES.

june: today i borrowed some doctor who dvds from the library starring tom baker.

july: marilyn manson is helping me right now.

august: KASUMI CAME BACK!

september: louis and i went adventuring today.

october: HEL O MY NAME IZ CAITLIN AND I AKT LIKE A FIVE YEAR OLD AND I FEEL JRUNK.

november: louis broke up with me yesterday and today he went back downstate on a bus.

december: i am irritated about life.



evidently i don't actually keep track of anything with anything.

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Date: 2009-01-10 02:54 Subject: monkey needing assistance Security: Public Mood: bored Music: katamari damacy

i have decided it is time for me to go on a serious hunt for inspiration to actually try in life again. i have been holed up feeling hopeless and worthless for too long. and i have cabin fever. it's almost three in the morning and i just took my second dexedrine. i took the first one when i got up at four in the afternoon. i'm supposed to take it twice a day, but obviously not at those times. i'm going to try to stay awake for the rest of the night. if i sleep i will set my alarm so that it's only a nap. if i somehow fuck myself up worse than i already was, at least i can say i tried. my only motivation for trying right now is that my life is stagnant. i am going outside to freeze my butt off now.

[01:25] The Dread Pirate Cato: hee hee. yours looks more exasperated than mine.
[01:25] Kendall: then i'm the winner!

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Date: 2008-11-28 00:19 Subject: i should update on my actual life. Security: Public Mood: curious Music: tori amos

louis and i split up, i still don't know if we'll get back together. if we do it won't be for quite a while. we the people with psychological problems, give each other a major headache.

i'm back on dexedrine, and the world has become a different place. this is like, the fourth day i've been on it and so far things are looking good. i haven't been sluggish and napping constantly. i've been doing stuff that needs done. i might even get a GED. my fucking room is clean for crying out loud.

i had two thanksgiving dinners, one at holly's and one at me mum's. timmy gave me an extremely belated birthday present; a book by henry rollins. oh, and timmy's wife is pregnant.

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Date: 2008-11-18 13:47 Subject: this...is a dream. Security: Public Mood: awake Music: good music Tags: dreams

i got a job as a nanny/housemaid with a guy i'm sure represented louis as like a groundskeeper/personal protection dude. i'm not sure if i looked like me but i started the dream from the girl's perspective trying to get my bearings in the house and make coffee. i was confused by the set up of everything and the coffee maker was really different and didn't make sense to me. the mom of the house was tending to her daughter who must have been about seven.

the details are starting to fade here. there were mobsters in the street plotting something and the mom and daughter went off on an errand of some sort. while they were gone the louis and me characters went for a bike ride through the woods. there was a lot of garbage on the trail and it made it difficult to ride on. there were also some giant cherries that looked like tomatoes growing on some of the trees out there. we passed a couple of old black mobster looking cars on the side of the trail. when we got to the end of the trail we found that it came out into a parking lot of an apartment complex that was still being built. we rode around the parking lot investigating for a short time and then went back on the garbage trail.

when we got back to the house i found out the mom and daughter needed me for another errand and i left with them. this is where i changed perspective to the louis character. i (as louis) decided to go back to the garbage trail and pick up the garbage because i didn't like it being there. i threw most of it into a big garbage can that was on the side of the trail in the middle of the woods (which most people apparently ignored) but i found upon closer inspection that a lot of the garbage was toys and interesting looking things, so i started setting those things up on the side of the trail as decoration.

when i was nearing completion i heard some noises coming down the trail and jumped into the back seat of one of the cars on the side of the trail. i guess i was a sort of mobster too because i pulled out a hand gun and pointed it down the trail. i think they may have actually been after me and that's why they were on the trail to begin with. they were in another black mob car rolling down the trail with guns out, some of them leaning out the windows looking for me. it was totally cliche mob movie stuff. as soon as they were in my visual range i started firing and picked them off very quickly, they never even knew what hit them. i don't know how i disposed of the car they came in or the bodies, but i did immediately. i then continued cleaning the garbage off the rest of the trail, but now there were some body parts and guts scattered about. i was more careful getting rid of the body parts i found and took them farther out into the woods. at some point i accidentally dropped some slimy guts on myself and made a mental note to take a shower before i took the little girl for a bike ride on the trail. i knew she would be excited that i had cleaned it up and it was now easier and more pleasant to ride on.

the end.

i keep this journal basically for the purpose of keeping in contact with three people who know who they are, i don't know if my dreams are interesting to you but it's a lot easier and faster to type them out than it is to write it all down on paper. so, sorry if i'm boring you or you think i'm stupid or whatever.

i just noticed that i said trail way too much in that last part. trail trail trail trail trail.

i also just remember another part of the dream that i can't really place anywhere on the timeline of events. i remember seeing a dog stumbling around on it's back legs holding a beer can in one paw. a lady told me the dog was an alcoholic.

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